It's hard for me to write this topic,partly because I'm hot headed and right now it's difficult to calm down,after the last drop broke my patience definitely; partly because I'm going to sort very old things together with new.
The first thing I want to say is,I'm sorry if I'll end up using some strong words from time to time,I will do my best to keep this very diplomatic,because my main point here is, I DO NOT intend to flame or start flaming; I just want to speak my frustration out,over things I'm keeping locked since long.I apologize in advance and I state again,I'm not trying to start an argument or offend anyone.
I'm not going to say names,or tell stories in details,or whatever; anybody that is involved knows and anybody that is not doesn't need to know either,probably.
I just want to state that I'm definitely,surely,by all means,SICK of all the drama and the garbage behind the curtains that has been going since 3 years so far.
I honestly loved this shard at first sight;the more I played,the more I felt home.
In many occasions and through many events the feeling was strengthened.
The saddest thing is,new players will never know fully that sense of homecoming and friendly atmosphere,because what we have now,I'm sorry to say,is but a pale imitation of what was and it survives only in few people;this may even be one of those "good old times" speeches,but that's what I've personally felt so far.
The good thing about it is, despite the drama and the garbage going on,many still strive to keep that feeling,and that's the true "heart" in sylvan;but for one that strives,10 tons of garbage comes out lately.
Many don't know me,because I use to come and go and disappear for long period of times; it is true that most of those times are due to real life issues,since I had and still have many going on.But many times,it was out of frustration that I didn't came.
The first time I disappeared it was honestly because a person totally ruined my game,in every sneaky,awful,mean way possible,and did so even when I returned,time and time again; I know for sure that this person ruined the game to many others (and was overlooked many times,one thing that made me want to puke,honestly,but I don't know the reasons,so I won't say anything more),but I was first to have problems with this person and nobody cared a damn,so I felt honestly down about it.But I decided to come and play again after a time,because sylvan was yet sylvan,and mostly because I had awesome friends I wanted to play with still,which made the game worth.
Then again and again,everytime I tried to have fun,garbage came out.And again.And again.And again...
I know my nature is silly and I take at heart many things,but what can I say,it seems they don't have a "take-back" policy for brains,so I have to work with the tools I'm provided eh;I can just say,everytime I'm starting to have fun again,someone or something comes out and vomits cr*p,giving me a general sense of being let down....and of disgust.....and rage for something I still consider beautiful,and home,being ruined to ashes like this.For what?Drama?Penis length complexes over bull***ts?Lies to cover lies?Whatever.
As a result for now I left all my guilds and I'm sorry if I hadn't the patience of staying and giving explanation for it;I just feel I wanna be by myself until I calm down for real,because seriously,I am at the point I feel I can't trust my very own shadow sometimes and all my good memories are being sh****d upon.
And this is NOT EVEN SIMILAR to having fun,sorry.Not my idea of fun.
I'm not being over idealistic here: drama will always exists,half truths as well and whatever,it's normal,I'm not wishing for an utopia.But this is a load that is really going over the edge and I'm not sure if I can still tolerate it; I'm just wishing for a tiny more honesty and coherence,just that.
This topic was just to say,if you see me disappearing again,next time you will know that maybe there were/are other reasons as well.
I'm sorry if this will seem madness or inappropriate to some,but I felt like that maybe,just maybe,for once I had the right to speak my mind out after so long.I hope you will let me do that and indulge me.
And this is really all,thanks anyway and sorry.
Caly/Nayra
The first thing I want to say is,I'm sorry if I'll end up using some strong words from time to time,I will do my best to keep this very diplomatic,because my main point here is, I DO NOT intend to flame or start flaming; I just want to speak my frustration out,over things I'm keeping locked since long.I apologize in advance and I state again,I'm not trying to start an argument or offend anyone.
I'm not going to say names,or tell stories in details,or whatever; anybody that is involved knows and anybody that is not doesn't need to know either,probably.
I just want to state that I'm definitely,surely,by all means,SICK of all the drama and the garbage behind the curtains that has been going since 3 years so far.
I honestly loved this shard at first sight;the more I played,the more I felt home.
In many occasions and through many events the feeling was strengthened.
The saddest thing is,new players will never know fully that sense of homecoming and friendly atmosphere,because what we have now,I'm sorry to say,is but a pale imitation of what was and it survives only in few people;this may even be one of those "good old times" speeches,but that's what I've personally felt so far.
The good thing about it is, despite the drama and the garbage going on,many still strive to keep that feeling,and that's the true "heart" in sylvan;but for one that strives,10 tons of garbage comes out lately.
Many don't know me,because I use to come and go and disappear for long period of times; it is true that most of those times are due to real life issues,since I had and still have many going on.But many times,it was out of frustration that I didn't came.
The first time I disappeared it was honestly because a person totally ruined my game,in every sneaky,awful,mean way possible,and did so even when I returned,time and time again; I know for sure that this person ruined the game to many others (and was overlooked many times,one thing that made me want to puke,honestly,but I don't know the reasons,so I won't say anything more),but I was first to have problems with this person and nobody cared a damn,so I felt honestly down about it.But I decided to come and play again after a time,because sylvan was yet sylvan,and mostly because I had awesome friends I wanted to play with still,which made the game worth.
Then again and again,everytime I tried to have fun,garbage came out.And again.And again.And again...
I know my nature is silly and I take at heart many things,but what can I say,it seems they don't have a "take-back" policy for brains,so I have to work with the tools I'm provided eh;I can just say,everytime I'm starting to have fun again,someone or something comes out and vomits cr*p,giving me a general sense of being let down....and of disgust.....and rage for something I still consider beautiful,and home,being ruined to ashes like this.For what?Drama?Penis length complexes over bull***ts?Lies to cover lies?Whatever.
As a result for now I left all my guilds and I'm sorry if I hadn't the patience of staying and giving explanation for it;I just feel I wanna be by myself until I calm down for real,because seriously,I am at the point I feel I can't trust my very own shadow sometimes and all my good memories are being sh****d upon.
And this is NOT EVEN SIMILAR to having fun,sorry.Not my idea of fun.
I'm not being over idealistic here: drama will always exists,half truths as well and whatever,it's normal,I'm not wishing for an utopia.But this is a load that is really going over the edge and I'm not sure if I can still tolerate it; I'm just wishing for a tiny more honesty and coherence,just that.
This topic was just to say,if you see me disappearing again,next time you will know that maybe there were/are other reasons as well.
I'm sorry if this will seem madness or inappropriate to some,but I felt like that maybe,just maybe,for once I had the right to speak my mind out after so long.I hope you will let me do that and indulge me.
And this is really all,thanks anyway and sorry.
Caly/Nayra