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It's hard for me to write this topic,partly because I'm hot headed and right now it's difficult to calm down,after the last drop broke my patience definitely; partly because I'm going to sort very old things together with new.

The first thing I want to say is,I'm sorry if I'll end up using some strong words from time to time,I will do my best to keep this very diplomatic,because my main point here is, I DO NOT intend to flame or start flaming; I just want to speak my frustration out,over things I'm keeping locked since long.I apologize in advance and I state again,I'm not trying to start an argument or offend anyone.

I'm not going to say names,or tell stories in details,or whatever; anybody that is involved knows and anybody that is not doesn't need to know either,probably.

I just want to state that I'm definitely,surely,by all means,SICK of all the drama and the garbage behind the curtains that has been going since 3 years so far.

I honestly loved this shard at first sight;the more I played,the more I felt home.
In many occasions and through many events the feeling was strengthened.
The saddest thing is,new players will never know fully that sense of homecoming and friendly atmosphere,because what we have now,I'm sorry to say,is but a pale imitation of what was and it survives only in few people;this may even be one of those "good old times" speeches,but that's what I've personally felt so far.
The good thing about it is, despite the drama and the garbage going on,many still strive to keep that feeling,and that's the true "heart" in sylvan;but for one that strives,10 tons of garbage comes out lately.

Many don't know me,because I use to come and go and disappear for long period of times; it is true that most of those times are due to real life issues,since I had and still have many going on.But many times,it was out of frustration that I didn't came.

The first time I disappeared it was honestly because a person totally ruined my game,in every sneaky,awful,mean way possible,and did so even when I returned,time and time again; I know for sure that this person ruined the game to many others (and was overlooked many times,one thing that made me want to puke,honestly,but I don't know the reasons,so I won't say anything more),but I was first to have problems with this person and nobody cared a damn,so I felt honestly down about it.But I decided to come and play again after a time,because sylvan was yet sylvan,and mostly because I had awesome friends I wanted to play with still,which made the game worth.

Then again and again,everytime I tried to have fun,garbage came out.And again.And again.And again...

I know my nature is silly and I take at heart many things,but what can I say,it seems they don't have a "take-back" policy for brains,so I have to work with the tools I'm provided eh;I can just say,everytime I'm starting to have fun again,someone or something comes out and vomits cr*p,giving me a general sense of being let down....and of disgust.....and rage for something I still consider beautiful,and home,being ruined to ashes like this.For what?Drama?Penis length complexes over bull***ts?Lies to cover lies?Whatever.


As a result for now I left all my guilds and I'm sorry if I hadn't the patience of staying and giving explanation for it;I just feel I wanna be by myself until I calm down for real,because seriously,I am at the point I feel I can't trust my very own shadow sometimes and all my good memories are being sh****d upon.
And this is NOT EVEN SIMILAR to having fun,sorry.Not my idea of fun.

I'm not being over idealistic here: drama will always exists,half truths as well and whatever,it's normal,I'm not wishing for an utopia.But this is a load that is really going over the edge and I'm not sure if I can still tolerate it; I'm just wishing for a tiny more honesty and coherence,just that.


This topic was just to say,if you see me disappearing again,next time you will know that maybe there were/are other reasons as well.

I'm sorry if this will seem madness or inappropriate to some,but I felt like that maybe,just maybe,for once I had the right to speak my mind out after so long.I hope you will let me do that and indulge me.


And this is really all,thanks anyway and sorry.



Caly/Nayra

I was wondering if it's just me having problems with this.

There is a series of little islands in the deepest level of shame dungeon;they are easily reached with teleportartion,but what about us non magic users?I tried using a boat,but it says I can't place one inside a dungeon....then how am I supposed to reach them?
I did a bit of research and the only way I saw on other shards was by boat.....so either I'm stupid and missing something secretly hidden,or they were meant just for magic users and sea horse racers? (don't know about ninjutsu though,don't have that on the toon I was using either) *lol*

Thanks to whoever can shed some light

I'm looking for certain specific items:

-A good mana leech/stamina leech (like at least over 30%) fencing or "use best weapon" skill weapon....I don't care the shape,but preferably one handed if possible (and a fast one would be piece of cake too,lol!);

-Monster statuettes and special dye tubs.....I'm not sure on current prices so be fair


I may add stuff to this list......anyway for now this is it,pm either Nayra or Ombra in game


Updated 

I'll be off for some days due to family trip I couldn't avoid and won't have connection

To everyone I missed these days,happy new year and be well till my come back!   

To those who were expecting me to pooff again,sorry to disappoint *laughs*
You may still be lucky though..... *shivers*


*hugs*

Another request that I do not know if doable,but I hope yes and with not much effort

We have the nice tool that converts helms (even artifact ones) into cute hats,because that norse helm is an eyesore on such cute faces...

So I was wondering,would it be possible to do the same things with weapons?
Let's say,rp wise you want to be a great swordsman,but the only good weapon you have is an axe...and let's say it,it's not the same when your paperdoll shows this ugly big axe while you want to be an elegant fencer.

The change would only affect normal shapes,like it's not you'll have the dreaded staff of thousands skulls,so to speak;but would be nice if you could turn a battle axe into a katana,or daisho,or no-dachi (for those like me who like the oriental styled weapons),with no other changes than the shape (it's not you'll have special attack of that weapon,or that damage...it just would look different,exactly as for fortified helms).

Probably a new tool can't be done,since we don't have a scripter,but maybe it can be done by other means,or at least I do hope so

Well it was worth giving it a try


Have a good day everyone

This is what happens when I attend something I am not supposed to attend,universe equilibrium fails and shard crashes *rotfl*

I was wondering if the dread pirate hats (ilsh arties) could be added to the list of fortyfing helms;they have very nice stats,expecially for the dex thing,but you can't fortify them and so my character was taken for a pirate rp wise,while she's just a wandering warrior....sigh.

Who said appearance doesn't matter!

Thanks anyway and good day

I'm looking for a good runic Daisho with high mana leech on it (i.e. more than 20% possibly lol);I say you that honestly I don't know anything about prices and what's good and whatnot in terms of metal and stats,because I never did a melee character before,but what I know is that I need mana leech and a daisho (maybe even a no-dachi if you have something ready,but nothing else except this two types)

So please pm me here or in game and tell me prices and mats needed.

I am also looking for a dwarven helm (or whatever it's called,it's an ilshenar artie),if you're willing to sell me one,tell me price.


Many thanks in advance and anyway;wish you all a good game and to have fun.

The other day,while I was fiddling with my characters,I noticed a couple of things which would be nice having,in terms both of style and rping;mind you,I don't know if the changes are doable,impossible,difficult or easy,I just propose them and wait for feedback meanwhile

I'm not sure about the community out there,but honestly I was a bit puzzled when I tried to dye my hair with a player hairstyler;we have pure white,we have a fancy teal,we even have pink and a plump purple and a series of other shades....but when it comes to simply dye hair black,only options available are a haggy gray (which is not even close to black) or a pale blue.Now we even have an oriental setting in tokuno and faeries as playable race,we have new skin hues as well,but we don't have something like black or a royal blue to dye hair;this is something I,at least,would find useful when personalizing my character,which I think most wants,especially when dealing with the standard graphic that uo offers,so customizing becomes a must for rpers (or simply to look fancy or,why not,just closer to the idea you have in mind).Even something that resembles black and not the "true black" would be worth having (everything but that pale grey lol).

As for the second thing,some people rp wise like to play the "halfbreeds";I myself love to play half elves for one,so I was wondering if it's possible to actually add the option to choose "true XXX" or "half xxx" in the race stone.That way people can have a fancy title displayed instead of having to state everytime "I'm half xxx";if not,maybe can pay (like for rehueing the racial skin hue,50k it once was,not sure now) to have his/her race title fiddled with (so not just as vs/account/donation reward and just for the race title).


I understand this would result in a lot of work for staffers,but at least I wanted to give it a try and propose


Thanks anyway and wish everyone a good day and game



Caly

[quick note: this is my first attempt on writing something in english,so have a bit of patience :9 if you find something strange/offensive/else,it's probably because I'm dumb and couldn't use the dictionary well or ended up using a word for another *giggles* anyway here it is,and if you find some very huge error pm me and I'll correct them  don't take it too seriously and read it to pass 5 mins *grins* ]


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As she watched the two figures fading down the road from the doorstep,side by side and still chit chatting,she felt both envious and grateful to have met such people as the Threnshaws and to be able of calling them friends;this was a word she in time became afraid to use,since everytime it came out from her lips she managed to loose someone...literally.

With a soft sigh,she closed the door behind her,the harsh words pronounced by Vendim the day before still floating in her mind,causing mixed emotions of regret,anger...and sadness.Still,a part of her thought it was better that way,even if it was hard to bear the pain of loss and mistrust.

Pouring some hot chocolate in a mug,she let the aroma please her senses and as she began to sip the warmth spread from her lips to the inside,bringing back in her memory the same pleasant feeling she felt during the Christmas party held in the Vale - the gifts,the dances,the music and above everything else,the people and the cheerfulness.
Those thoughts brought a smile on her face,a smile that faded as soon as the images of the loving couples,old and new - especially one - showed at the doorstep of her mind,leading her down to a painful path,made of old,sorrowful recollections and present,forbidden desires.

She shook her head lightly,as to make those kind of thoughts go away;but they persistently remained and she found her cup empty,the warmth all gone.
Leaving the mug on the table,she began to go up the stairs till the third floor,to reach the ebony door leading to the only room she was really able to relax in;the room was faintly illuminated by only few candles and she refused to light it up more,while flames flickered and danced on her silhouette,as she began to unlace her dress,quickly undoing her armor and letting everything slide on the floor,all scattered around.
Slowly entering in the hot,bubbling water,she let the warmth embrace her again and ease her fatigue,physical and mental;with eyes closed,she relaxed with a sigh,her back pushed toward the heated rock,while her mind wandered once again on how things were turning upside down...

Valmara,the first person she had known when she arrived in these lands,was following her own path and felt so distant now;Vendim as well,whom she owed so much and who she cared as one of her family,now hated her,believing she fooled him on purpose and refusing to hear any word,reason or else she could say.And Rayne...who looked so much like her...and whom she felt so near since the first moment they met...now looked at her with embarrassment and concern,always holding something and not speaking freely,afraid of hurting her feelings - and Caly knew why all too well.

Was this really the best thing,to stay away from the others,to let them go away?
Once she believed so and she still.Then why she was feeling like this now?

Ashamed of such questions and afraid of the answer she was trying to ignore,she suddenly felt an overwhelming wave of emotions enraging inside her and in an attempt to suffocate everything,she plunged deeply into the water,letting that absolute silence embrace her and calming her mind for a long while.
When she finally emerged,she grasped for air,her fingers busy taming soaked locks of hair that were reflecting flames,glistening into the dark;standing up in all her height,with her wet skin glowing softly (a gift from her mother side) and water dripping on the floor,she grabbed a towel and began to dry her hair with slow movements,letting the fresh night air cooling her heated body.

Her eyes gazed away,lost in the semi-darkness of the room.
A home....friends....love.
Once she had all of them....and when she lost them,she was pushed on the brink of insanity.
She could never...ever again allow such a thing to happen.
Then why this time it was so hard to resist?Had she forgotten her oath?

Letting the towel slide on her shoulder,she lowered her right hand down on her body,till she reached a point under her waist:the crippled tissue of her scar tickled her fingers as she rubbed it.

It was still there - and forever it was going to stay there,too deep to mend.
The memento of her crime,the symbol of her punishment for her pride;the reason why she was a wife no more - and maybe forever she won't be again,always reminding her that for the rest of her life,she was going to be an "half".

Half elf....and half a woman.

She closed her eyes,breathing deeply,knowing no one else was to blame for that apart from her;yet now she found herself cursing her condition,both desperate and relieved of not being able to love freely.Confused and scared,she kept telling herself that feeling again those kind of emotions was dangerous,that she shouldn't get near anybody;yet,someone said to her "heart has its own reasons"....and that was mercilessly true.

But then again,the same old questions appeared to torment her.

"Has a tainted one the right to be loved?Can a murderer dare to live happily,comforted by things such friends?"

Shivering not only for the cold that she felt now,she quickly wore her light kimono,letting it draw her curves as she tightened it on the waist,the delicate and smooth caress of the red silk sending pleasant feeling up her skin;back downstairs,she grabbed a book from the shelf and as she sat down in her comfy chair,she prepared to pass another sleepless night - avoiding thoughts,memories....and dreams.